Now its complete lonliness here which has silently rushed into life...U were nvr here...N nw all my frns hav also left..Pooh,whom i nvr wanted 2 go too far away frm me hs already left long back...n now Sradha hs left 4 Pune yesterday n Rupa too hs left 4 Bangalore 2day...All hv found dere own way f living life...bt m here...
Just a few days back i found som real good frns Swathi n Arjun...N i found dem too good...I found a bit f Pooh inside Swathi...Bt b4 we cud spend some real good times God deprived me of doin dat too..B4 I started havin som dreams abt our frnshp...dey were back to Bangalore...I really wished I could atlyst meet dem b4 dey go back...Bt God I cudnt...Bt nehw I'll meet dem again...Cos out f all training mates I like Swathi,Dinesh n Arjun...Cos dey are really frns in need...Hope u'll help me...
Now wen I think of sharing my thoughts even...I find no1 otherdan solitude which madens me every now n den...God I feel like dying dere bt Ohh nohhh I've 2 relive my life again n again just 4 U...I really wanna C u...
You say I shudnt cry bcos back @ hom I've Mama n Baba 2 look aftr me...Bt U nvr understand dat U r nt here...Soul says no1 otherdan U can hear it wen it cries...Yes I hate wen u console me saying "dont cry,cos U r wid ur Mama n Baba"...It really weally irritates me...Hw cant u understand every1 hv their own importance!!!Oh God I feel like only m missing U not U...
I kno m bad...M nt into a good place...M ugly...M fat...Bt m I dat bad dat U dont wanna com back 2 me!!!Hav U ever thought f coming back seriously???God y dont u make me impressive dat he comes back...Ohk leave it..Hav u evr thought f Maa n Bapa???Do U kno hw much dey r seeking 4 U???Yes Dear...every1 here s hoping U 2 com back...
I kno though its abt 2 complete 2 yrs n 5 months f our relationship...Bt Baba nvr talked 2 U frm his side...I kno U feel bad abt it...Mama wants 2 talk 2 U bt its all matter f time n medium f communication...Baba s nt dat open like Bapa n Maa...Baba s a bit conservative...Somtyms evn i feel scared God wat perception U have abt dem...Bt tym will say U dat dey like U d most...Yes dey like you though dey dont discuss abt U infront f me much...Neways me too waiting for rite tym....U kno dey r equally worried about U...Mama asks me about U always...
Its hurts me more wen ne1 asks me "Wenis He comming???"...I try 2 make myself busy in other craps...Bt everytym som1 or other keeps on asking me d same qns...N @ dat very moment I feel like teased by tym n universe again n again...N m tired off answering dat qns...I've now decided 2 keep quite on dat qns...Cos I hav lost all my hopes...Evn I dont trust tym now...Cos everytym m tryin 2 stand on d Sun it starts teasing me ...U hav no answer so U r a fool...Yesss m fooled...n my everyday is same as the day passed...Nothing new..,N its gonna b worst d very next day...
Ohh God gimme more strength to stand on all dose upcoming even worse situation...
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